Entire day spent in church today. Started at 8:30 in the morning... Had to act in the skit for Youth Camp Publicity. Then had to cover for Adric in drums... First song was quite messy but worship was good. Felt refreshed since friday... But as the weekend comes to a close, I find myself getting more weary. Maybe cos I'm physically tired from a long day today.

Had practice for seeker service... 2-ish to 7-ish. Had a lot of time to think in between scenes. So many thoughts which I don't know how to translate into words. So many choices... Many choices which aren't necessarily wrong... But maybe not be the best step to take. But sometimes I get so frustrated at thinking and praying about making the right choices when I can just choose MY way... Saves the headache. But it isn't the best path. And I can't be sure that I'm under His hand if I go my own way. You see the dilemma? Maybe you might not understand... Thats ok. I don't understand myself sometimes too...

::: Song of the Day :::
It's so hard, believe in things,
that you can't see yourself, see yourself.
Behind the scene, lies more then
you can understand yourself, stand yourself.

Then they'll tell you what you want to hear,
when they're done, will you still live in fear?

And everything you said to me put me on my knees,
and everything you said to me put me on my knees.
I can't believe a thing you say
I can't believe a thing you say.

You're told that selfishness will guide your path.
What will you do when that just dosen't last?

Its so hard to believe in you
I'm not quite clear what I should do
And now I know that you're the only one,
but do they know that you're the only one.

It's so hard to, believe in things that you can't see.
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